Wednesday, December 14, 2005
This'll probably catch a few people out, and no doubt disapoint a few more.... I've dropped out of college. The whole "go to uni, get a degree followed by a big well paid job" plan is dead in the water.Why?
The very short answer is college was making me miserable.
The longer answer is somewhat more complex.
What it really comes down to is this.
I asked myself "Do I as an extremely independant person who *hates* being told what to do, really want to spend a year jumping through hoops, learning very little, and what little I do learn is despite the tutors, not because of them... and then go onto uni and get into *huge* debt (around £20k) so I can learn a whole lot of stuff that I'll hate and just a little of what I'll like, for four years.... so that I can then go onto a job which though it will be well paid, will basically mean doing what someone else tells me to do?"
Well, this question has been going through my head for the past few weeks, and though I've been resisting giving myself an honest answer, I finally had to face up to the fact that the answer is a resounding "Hell no!"
So here I am, feeling relieved that I don't have to go back to that place and have my time wasted by some boring twit who's getting paid good money for blathering on about nothing and simply going through the motions.... but also feeling entirely fed up, coz I quit. I didn't do what I'd set out to do. That part sucks.
What now?
I go back and do what I should've done all along. Build more websites.
Expect a fledgling "Benway's World" to appear shortly after christmas.
Labels: college
Steve 3:24 PM [+] (0) comments
Monday, November 21, 2005
Eek!In college today I took part in a group presentation. OMG!
Scared? I've never spoken in front of a group before, like... ever, so to say I was nervous is the understatement of the century.
I was losing the plot a little at the start of my piece, forgot what I was trying to say, voice broke up, and I just wanted to run away screaming.
I just about managed to hold it together though, and about a third of the way through my piece, I pulled myself together and became a little more coherent.
Overall, our group did very well because we were ad-libbing, and not just reading pre-prepared stuff, but by god, I dont wanna do that again in a hurry.
Labels: college
Steve 2:37 PM [+] (0) comments
Friday, November 18, 2005
I'm absolutely sick to death of my IT lesson in college. So sick of it, I just walked out.After missing the 2nd 2 weeks of the course when I had bad eyes, I got dumped into the bottom group in the class and have been pretty much ignored ever since.
So today I show up, and the computers wont recognise my login and password, and a message has been left saying the tutor will be late.
Well I'm fucked if I'm gonna sit there twiddling my thumbs waiting for him to show up, just so I can log on.
I may yet fail this whole course, coz unless something gets done about this IT course, I'm simply not gonna go to it... and less than 80% attendance in any lesson means failing the whole lot.
I have a personal tutorial next tuesday where I get to talk about the course in general with my tutor, so I plan to kick up a stink.
Steve 9:20 AM [+] (0) comments
Sunday, October 09, 2005
What a difference a day makes.Well... two, actually.
While one lecture on wednesday left me feeling thoroughly disheartened, another on friday left me on a real high, and filled with enthusiasm.
I guess I can't actually say which lessons, as having stated which college I'm at, it would only take someone there reading this to know who I was referring to. Wouldn't be too clever for me to publicly say "mr so and so is a total fuckwit and couldn't teach such and such a lesson to save his life"
Ah well.
It all seems to be balancing out in the end anyway.
Labels: college
Steve 11:28 PM [+] (0) comments
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Well, after much toing and froing between hospitals for blood tests, x-rays and whatever, the usual treatment with drops, and all the inconvenience you might expect, my eyes are pretty much better, though I'm none the wiser as to the cause.All of this left me going back to college having missed a couple of lessons each from most of my important classes, and this being only the start of the course, the reaction to my renewed presence from some of the tutors was a little... hmm... less enthusiastic than I'd have liked.
They basically dismissed me as a time waster, without ever bothering to learn the facts.
Can't say I'm too happy about that.
That pretty much sums up my feelings regarding the whole of the past month really. Difficult.
Oh yeah, I haven't smoked a cigarette in over a month now.
Labels: annoyed, college, iritis, medical
Steve 6:25 PM [+] (0) comments
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Things aren't quite as bad as I expected.Because the dose of eyedrops is lower, only my short range vision is affected, and only for around the first 6 hours out of every 12.
That's still going to make college difficult in some lessons, but at least not impossible.
I'm feeling a little less distressed about the whole thing now.
Labels: college, iritis, medical
Steve 7:10 AM [+] (0) comments
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Bollox.So here I am trying to get my life on track when what happens?
Iritis. *Both* eyes.
So now I have to spend at the very least a week, if not several weeks, effectively blind due to the dilating drops.
I'll be able to see well enough to not walk into people, but crossing the road would be dangerous, so I'm effectively housebound while on my own. I certainly wont be able to read or write, so college and all online activities are buggered.
*sigh*
Thanks in advance for any kind or concerned comments. I wont be able to check them for some time, obviously
Labels: annoyed, college, iritis
Steve 10:08 PM [+] (0) comments
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Settling in.College started with an induction day last week, and another today, while lessons proper start tomorrow.
I have to say, after 20 years outside of any kind of educational setting, college feels *very* weird.
So, tomorrow I have sociology in the morning followed by 3 hours of maths in the afternoon (shudder). Friday's the day I'm looking forward to though. IT in the morning with psychology in the afternoon.
Labels: college
Steve 1:12 AM [+] (0) comments
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