Sunday, August 28, 2005
Other stuff going on....I've quit smoking (again). It's been 4 days now, and I haven't killed anyone... yet.
Been shown the local area by Andrea over the past few days and weeks. Yesterday was Chesterfield, which I absolutely loved. Week before last was Mansfield (Paul, you have my sympathy ;) ). This week coming will be Sheffield, and maybe Lincoln too.
Oh yeah, last week, the day before I moved in proper, we went to this 80s revival concert thing at Clumber Park. Tony Hadley and Whatshisface from ABC were headlining, but I was really there for Howard Jones. Okay, so he's looking old, and his career was washed up around 20 years ago, but damn, it was good hearing all those songs again.
Labels: music, quitting smoking
Steve 3:40 PM [+] (0) comments
Monday, October 27, 2003
This quitting smoking lark is tough.Curiously, I don't actually crave a cigarette at all, but the physical and mental effects of nicotine withdrawl are taking a toll.
Yesterday I felt very highly strung and aggitated, very quick to anger... today I feel burned out and depressed.
Two weeks, that's how long I expect it to take before I feel human again and have a proper grip of myself. Unfortunately, I have to find work before then... and I really don't relish the prospect of working in such a state, however temporary the job may be.
On an entirely different note... have you ever noticed that chilli really makes your pee stink?
Labels: quitting smoking
Steve 5:00 PM [+] (0) comments
Friday, October 24, 2003
Yup, withdrawl is setting in bigtime, and it's only been one day.We're not talking about just climbing the walls... oh no, we're talking complete mental fuck up... lol. To say my judgement is impaired is something of an understatement.
Rational thought is kinda hard to come by... I wonder if this is what pmt (pms) is like... 'cause I'd bite a person's head off at the drop of a hat in this state.
Not giving up though... or rather, I am giving up... or, oh, you know what I mean.
No cigs. Nonononono.
Labels: quitting smoking
Steve 11:53 AM [+] (0) comments
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Labels: quitting smoking
Steve 6:13 AM [+] (0) comments
Thursday, October 23, 2003
Today begins my serious attempt to quit smoking.I ran out of cigs around 6am this morning, and dug out the nicorette inhaler thing about an hour ago.
I guess there's not much need to go into the details of why I'm quitting... they're the same for everybody... health and money.
Fingers crossed then.
Expect much ranting and raving as I start climbing the walls in the near future.
Labels: quitting smoking
Steve 9:34 AM [+] (0) comments
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
Sorry folks, but we totally whimped out today with the quitting smoking thing.Truth is, when you're totally on edge and moody, the last thing you need is someone around you who's totally on edge and moody, and cosidering Brigitte's only just moved in, it just seemed like a bad time to both be in such a state of mind. We'll try again when we're both settled and more used to living together.
Labels: quitting smoking
Steve 11:08 PM [+] (0) comments
Craving? What craving? Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!
So while stumbling aimlessly around the net, trying not to think about cigarettes, I signed up for some free webspace... like I really need more webspace. How many sites am I up to now? I'm losing track. 4 main and highly visible sites, 2 deliberately low profile sites, and probably quite a few individual pages scattered around where I only have partial control. Bet you can't find them all... hehehe.
Anyway, the question now is, what am I gonna do with this extra 25 meg of webspace I've got?
Labels: quitting smoking
Steve 1:46 PM [+] (0) comments
Monday, April 28, 2003
If you should be unfortunate enough to speak to me over the coming days and weeks, be warned, I'm likely to be a moody, edgy and potentially volatile character.Yeah yeah, I know there's those of you who'll say "so what's new?" but this is serious... I'm making a concerted effort to quit smoking, and as if that isn't a dangerous enough prospect, just to crank up the tension a little more, so is Brigitte.
So... it's 11:24 pm, and I haven't had a smoke in 12 hours. Quite an achievement for someone who usually smokes around two an hour. Probably the only reason there's no huge pile of corpses filling the car park is this Nicorette nicotine inhaler thingie. It rather looks like I'm chewing the lid from a biro all day long, but it seems to do the trick.
Labels: quitting smoking
Steve 11:30 PM [+] (0) comments
Sunday, March 02, 2003
There's a down side to being a super fit always healthy person. On the rare occasions that I'm not fit and healty, I not only get a major case of the whines, but there's also the tendancy for me to panic and make a complete twat of myself.So there we were yesterday, in Brigitte's car on the way to Aylesbury for a shopping trip, when my already somewhat congested lungs (from a lingering minor chest infection that's been hanging around for a couple of months) decided they were gonna have a barny at me for all the cigs I'd smoked the night before. All of a sudden I couldn't breathe. "Wheeze wheeze" I went. This, coupled with a periodic chest pain I suffer due to misaligned shoulders from bad posture, and an oddly inflamed vein in my leg, all at the same time, led to the most scary ideas going through my head.
"Oh shit, I've got a deep vein thrombosis, a blood clot's gone to my lungs, blocking the blood flow to my heart, and now I'm gonna die!!"
Obviously I didn't die, but it freaked me out so I was all in a sweat, which rather worried Brigitte too. So she's sat there looking concerned and asking if I'm okay, and the best I could say was "I don't know." Anyway, the panic subsided when I realised I wasn't gonna keel over straight away, and we carried on to Aylesbury.
We didn't stay that long though, 'cause even though I obviously wasn't gonna fall down dead, I really did feel lousy, just kinda following Brigitte like some lost puppy. On getting home, we just slumped down in a chair, downloading music on kazaa lite while I quietly whimpered. I'm such a wuss.
So... I need to quit the cigs bigtime if they're gonna make me feel like that, and in truth, should probably see the doctor about this vein thing too.
Anyway, I need to say a belated happy birthday to arry, as in all my whining and feeling lousy, I entirely failed in my duties as a friend, and didn't go wish her a happy birthday yesterday.
Labels: medical, quitting smoking
Steve 1:04 PM [+] (0) comments
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