Wednesday, September 05, 2007
3 hours sleep is not enough.If anyone else knocks at the door, I'm going to start throwing things.
Steve 11:50 AM [+] (0) comments
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Seems the switch from night to day mode hasn't been entirely succesful after all.I'm finding myself going to bed very early, but waking in the middle of the night for a couple of hours, going back to bed and getting up fairly early... but feeling absolutely shattered.
The trouble with this is, it leaves me feeling quite grouchy, and I'm having to be careful not to be offish with people when they've done absolutely nothing wrong.
It'll pass in a couple of days, but right now, it's quite difficult.
Labels: sleep
Steve 4:11 PM [+] (0) comments
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
After staying awake for waaaaay longer than my body found agreeable, I managed to flip from night to day mode in one night last night. Wasn't easy, but I did it.So today I got up at 5am(ish) and sat around till a reasonable hour to text Andrea.
I'm liking this very much. So we may be 100 and something miles apart, but there's something very nice about being able to have a chat in the morning over breakfast, as opposed to me being fast asleep till the middle of the afternoon.
So after chatting again on the phone while waiting for a bus, I nipped into town to pay the rent, and while in town I chanced upon a new toy... and a bit of a bargain too.
Now I've always liked the idea of handheld games consoles, but have never really been too grabbed by the usual Nintendo thing. So how chuffed was I when the retro gaming shop I often visit had a stock of brand new (though long discontinued) NeoGeo Colour Pocket consoles, boxed, with 6 games for £80?
It's retro, it's fairly exclusive, it's certainly different.... and best of all, among the 6 bundled games... it has Metal Slug. I've been a fan of the Metal Slug series of games since I started playing them on a NeoGeo emulator on my pc a couple of years ago.
Much fun.
I should look and see what the other games are (haven't even bothered to look, coz I've only been interested in Metal Slug)
Pac-Man, King Of The Fighters R2, Fatal Fury: First Contact, Neo Turf Masters and Samurai Showdown 2.
Not bad going for a bundled collection.
Labels: consoles, games, sleep
Steve 11:52 AM [+] (0) comments
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Oh god that's better... 10 hours of really solid sleep, and boy did I need it.I pretty much ran myself into the ground over the past couple of days, to the point where I was feeling quite ill.
My sleep pattern being what it is, I often reach the point where my body clock can't decide if I should be asleep in the daytime, or at night, so I wind up sleeping through most of both... but this time around it couldn't make up its mind again, and refused to sleep at all.
Still stuck between day and night mode... crashing out in the middle of the afternoon and waking up around 1am, but it's cool, coz I'm still awake at the times I need to be to get things done.
Oh yeah... I'm absolutely loving this MP3 player thing. It's almost like having my launchcast radio station in my pocket. All my absolute favourite tunes, non-stop... never repeating the same tune... no having to get up and change a disk or turn over a tape, and battery life so long that I just don't have to worry about it. The only time it ran low was during heavy hard drive usage while I was transferring tunes onto it, and that was easilly fixed by just plugging it into the charger while I worked.
Just another hundred or so CDs to rip and transfer now... then I'll probably pay a trip to the library and see what good music I can borrow.
The one thing having this widget has brought home to me is how much good music I used to have, but don't any more... or just can't access coz I don't have a record deck. Once upon a time I had a massive tape collection, hundreds of albums that I don't have on CD, so I know there's *lots* of songs that I love but don't have available to rip.... and I can't remember the titles to download them.
I abandoned the tape collection when I left an old gf a few years ago... it was just too much to take with me, coz I had limited transportation facilities available to me, and I figured I didn't listen to tapes any more since getting a CD player. (yeah... it was that long ago)
Yeash... am I ever rambling.
Steve 2:05 AM [+] (0) comments
Friday, September 03, 2004
Ahhh... Family :-)My sister niece and mum came round yesterday afternoon, which really lifted my spirits.
We sat and chatted about a whole load of stuff, and... pressies... yay!
From my niece, a 'Best Uncle In The World' mug (she's so sweet), from my mum, an ornamental bonsai tree replica, and from my sister, Kill Bill Vols 1 and 2 on VDV.
When they went home I'd already been up for far too long and was absolutely exhausted and really wasn't feeling too well, so I pretty much went straight to bed. Now after around 10 hours solid sleep, I feel much better. Still a little pain (I think it's a glandular thing), but it's not nearly so bad.
Labels: sleep
Steve 3:33 AM [+] (0) comments
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Bleh!Serious boredom.
I dunno why but nothing seems to hold my interest this week. After 1am when uktv history closes down the tv becomes amazingly dull, I don't feel like playing video games, and I just can't be asked to join in with the bickering and sillyness in irc chat.
None of this would matter if I was awake in the day, but I'm in full-on night mode at the mo, so that ammounts to long hours of serious tedium.
What I really need to do is get the new pc I've been meaning to buy so I can start work on some new music, but I'm holding off on any serious spending in preparation for certain other events that I won't go into here.
Labels: sleep
Steve 2:02 AM [+] (0) comments
Saturday, July 03, 2004
Bleh... and entirely wasted day (er... night actually).I went to bed around 6am and didn't wake up till 6pm with a thumping headache.
Since then I've just lounged around watching tv with a numb brain. Couldn't be bothered to chat... I'm rather sick of that place at the moment.
Labels: sleep
Steve 3:53 AM [+] (0) comments
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
Ahhhh... finally caught up with sleep.Crashed around 4pm yesterday afternoon and woke around 1am this morning.
I needed that so badly.
Just got back from a walk down the garage for cigs. It's pissing it down out there so I'm a bit on the soggy side, but there's nothing worse than waking up in the middle of the night with no cigs.
Listening to Super Slut Radio on Winamp again. It went awol for a while, but now it's back I have something to listen to while I'm locked out of my LaunchCast station. I exceeded my monthly bandwidth allocation (again).
Labels: sleep
Steve 3:49 AM [+] (0) comments
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Well... it has to be said, I'm absolutely knackered. Been up since 3pm yesterday and gotta go into town as soon as I've drunk this coffee, so don't expect anything meaningful (like there ever is) in this post. The world gets kinda weird when all you want to do is sleep.I'm sure there was something I intended to say before I went, but I'm damned if I can remember what.
Labels: sleep
Steve 8:59 AM [+] (0) comments
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Seems having messed up sleep has something of a knock-on effect, coz I feel like a great big pile of crap today.Oh well.
So anyway... I'm a great lover of Ferrari cars, and was absolutely gutted to see that the new 612 Scaglietti is an absolute styling abortion. Never have I seen such an ugly Ferrari. I dunno what the people at Pininfirina were thinking of when they designed it, but it's SO wrong.
The photo does a good job of desguising just how ugly the car is, but if you look at the lines along the side, and consider that the bonnet (hood) is a mile long, you'll get the picture.
Just as I was going to dispair that the makers of the most beautiful cars in the world had lost the plot, Aston Martin come to the rescue with the absolutely sublime DB9. Now that's what cars should look like. Ferrari, take note.
Now THIS is a thing of beauty. Nuff said.
Labels: sleep
Steve 1:06 PM [+] (0) comments
Sunday, January 11, 2004
Woah!18 hours of solid sleep works wonders for my mood. Now I just need to work out what day it is, coz losing one is kinda disorienting.
Being in the chatroom after quitting my ops is rather amusing. The combination of having ops privately try to persuade me to take my ops back... and the freedom of once again being able to say to assholes in the channel "Screw you, idiot!"... I'm enjoying it.
Labels: sleep
Steve 12:44 PM [+] (0) comments
Tuesday, July 22, 2003
It's one of those quiet uneventful periods chez Benway.Not much going on but sleep, tv, surfing, chatting, and generally idling away the days. I'm back in daytime mode again, and to be honest, it really doesn't suit me. I dunno what it is about being a nocturnal creature, but I do all my best thinking at night, so when I'm in daytime mode, I find it hard to function beyond simply existing.
Labels: sleep
Steve 4:18 PM [+] (0) comments
Saturday, July 12, 2003
Today has consisted of mostly sleep, or being awake and thinking about going back to sleep.It seems one or two people from the #england undernet irc chatroom have found this blog, probably via my webcam page, so I wanna say a big hi to the rabble there :-)
I've been thinking of putting up a java applet to that room on one or other of my sites, so that various friends who don't use mirc can get in and join the mayhem. However, it not being my room, and with various security issues that could arise, I'm in two minds about it.
We'll see.
Steve 10:34 PM [+] (0) comments
Thursday, July 10, 2003
Phew... slept for 14 hours solid and then got up and fixed the comments script.A friend dropped round later for a coffee and a chat, and put herself on the dating site Brigitte and myself met on... so it should be interesting to see how much luck she has. It's a pretty good site too... I certainly can't complain about it :-)
There's not much else to tell you at the moment... not surprising considering how long I was asleep for.
Labels: sleep
Steve 8:22 PM [+] (0) comments
Sunday, June 01, 2003
Life's a bit freaky just now.Extreme nocturnal sleeping patterns coupled with cranky mood-swings make life difficult for anyone around me at the moment.
All that aside, I'm having a lot of fun... just don't interrupt me while I'm doing something, or I might bite your head off.
And what's this? Addicted to Big Brother? God help me.
Labels: sleep
Steve 2:04 AM [+] (0) comments
Saturday, May 03, 2003
Ok... change of plan.Having an already fucked up sleep pattern, even after going to bed early I was struggling to sleep, and then woken completely by a dumbass neighbour playing his music at full blast around 2am. Brigitte knocked on his door and after a heated exchange between the three of us, he finally agreed to turn the noise down, though made like he was doing us a favour. Twat!
The end result is, I still can't sleep and will be in no fit state to go to London tomorrow. Brigitte'd already said if I was too tired (which makes me grumpy) that I should stay home and she'd go alone... which is what's happening. No good me being there if I'm gonna be a grumpy git, especially when I need my sociable head on, being with her parents and all.
I'm not happy about it, `cause I feel like I've let Brigitte down, not to mention the fact that I was looking forward to going. I've made a concerted effort over the past 2 days to get my sleep pattern sorted so that it wouldn't be an issue, and it's all been fucked up by some stupid fucking moron who doesn't see anything wrong in playing music REALLY LOUD at 2am.
Steve 2:53 AM [+] (0) comments
Thursday, May 01, 2003
Ugh.Rough day. Got overtired last night, chatting and searching for software, so when I finally crashed, I couldn't sleep. Getting 5 hours sleep and waking at 4pm is always guaranteed to leave me with a headache.
Oh fuck it. You don't wanna hear all that crap. What really happened is I had a wild party, 5 naked women in the tub, drove the Ferrari down to the beach, sat shooting the breeze with assorted movie stars and......
... then I woke up.
Ok, it really hasn't been that bad a day, I'm just bummed 'cause I can't think of anything interesting to write here, and I always get grouchy when I have a headache. That, and it feels like such a wasted day. I have lots of little projects in the pipeline, some good stuff at that, but waking up with an addled brain, I just can't think clear enough to do any of it.
Whine, whine, whine.... someone shut me up.
In conclusion then... good stuff coming, just not today. Now where did I park the Ferrari?
Labels: sleep
Steve 10:28 PM [+] (0) comments
Monday, January 13, 2003
Ahhhh... I feel human again.After a week of catching barely more than a couple of hours cat-nap a day, I was starting to feel rather ill. This weekend though, I managed two half decent nights sleep in a row. The relief is just incredible.
So anyway, when I got home this morning, I set to work on some badly needed website updates. The Octopus Files is now back up to date after being neglected for a week, while the chatroom menu's have had something of an overhaul.
Things are looking rather good in there just lately, and after nearly abandoning the room completely through disillusionment and general lack of interest, I find myself quite enthusiastic about the place again. For reasons that elude me, the quality of visitors dropping in of late seems far higher than in previous months, and it's a pleasure again to hang out there.
Labels: sleep
Steve 11:53 AM [+] (0) comments
Friday, November 22, 2002
I'm up and it's not even 9 o'clock. I must be ill. What's stranger still is that I have the urge to go out and DO stuff, though I've no idea what.Why is this all so strange? Well, anyone who knows me even a little knows that I'm a complete night owl, not normally out of bed till gone noon, and often as late as 5pm.
This has come about due to the level of online work I've been doinng over the past week. For some reason, I only do web design work in the hours of daylight... once it's dark, I stop. So.. I've been up in the daytime, and it's become a habbit. It's a strange feeling, but I rather like it, though it's something of a bummer as far as going to the chatroom's concerned, 'cause everyone's there quite late at night. Anyways... I'll make an effort to get some kind of balance back, now that most of the hard work's done, though it's not likely to be till the middle of next week before I get back into my normal routine. Brigitte's got a week off work, and even though we now can't afford to go on the holiday we'd been planning, we're still gonna go places and do stuff.
Labels: sleep
Steve 9:05 AM [+] (0) comments
Tuesday, November 19, 2002
I seem to be paying off some serious sleep debt accumulated over the past week or so, as for the past three days (I think) I've been awake for about 6 hours out of every 24. This isn't good. Much as I love sleeping, when I wake up I feel lousy. Anyway... more later, when I've woken up a bit.Labels: sleep
Steve 9:37 AM [+] (0) comments
Tuesday, November 12, 2002
Sleep pattern's all messed up again. I went from 10am on sunday through to noonish on monday before I managed to sleep. Okay, so I managed to get some updates done on my websites, but yeash, it's a pain in the arse, 'cause I'm not awake when I really need to be.Labels: sleep
Steve 2:12 AM [+] (0) comments
Friday, October 25, 2002
Oops.I slept till nearly 6pm this evening. That`s what happens when you don't go to sleep till around 8am.
Last night in the chatroom was a very pleasant change. I wandered in maybe just a little earlier than usual to be greeted by several chatters, a couple of whom I havn't seen in some time. Nice :-)
Labels: sleep
Steve 7:46 PM [+] (0) comments
Saturday, October 19, 2002
Sleep is a wonderful thing, one of my fave passtimes in fact, but it has to be said, too much is NOT good for you. I went to bed early last night, and then didn't get up today till at least 3pm, so guess what? I had a headache. That'll teach me to be such a lazy git. Worse yet, I'd unplugged the phone to save being disturbed while I slept, and then in the morning, plugged in the modem on the other pc instead of the phone. So Brigitte comes in this evening and asks me why I'm not answering the phone. Doh!Labels: sleep
Steve 11:39 PM [+] (0) comments
Saturday, October 12, 2002
I've been woken by some silly phone calls in my time, but todays has to take the biscuit.My mum rang to tell me she'd found her cat that's been missing for several days... at 7:30am!!!!!
ARRGH!!!
Steve 11:14 PM [+] (0) comments
Wednesday, October 02, 2002
Ugh!I've felt better.
Went to bed last night with a headache, and woke up today feeling lousy. No headache as such, just a numb brain, and feeling generally rough, though with no specific symptoms. Ah well.
I've noticed some interesting things while checking the stats for this blog. My overall regular readership is way down, so I guess I'm just being a bit too boring for people or something, but hits from search engines have risen dramatically. Not really a very good trade off though, 'cause visitors from search engines generally aren't going to find what they're looking for, and don't tend to stop and read. I know why traffic from s/e's is up though... it's the site map I included a couple of months back. Your typical blogger template uses java script to access the archives, and most of the s/e's can't/don't follow those links, so adding a page with standard html links to the archives, and then linking to that from the main page gives them access to all of the archives, and hence more visitors. Don't know what I'm talking about? Check the sidebar over on the left. A bit below the archives you'll see a link to the site map. Click on it. Having said that, you can't do that with a standard blogspot account. You need hosting and ftp access to add such a page.
Steve 8:44 PM [+] (0) comments
Wednesday, September 11, 2002
Haven't been online much over the past couple of days. My sleep pattern and whole routine have gone completely up the wall, and I couldn't seem to get my act together. Taking a couple of days off seemed like the only solution. I can't say that it's helped, and I've been struggling with a headache all day, so we'll just have to see.As predicted, I got a reply from the company I had the interview with last week, and I didn't get the job *chuckles*.
Labels: interviews, sleep, work
Steve 5:05 PM [+] (0) comments
Saturday, September 07, 2002
I appear not to be allowed to sleep today.I dunno why it is, but just lately I've been needing to sleep more than usual... just a bit burned out after a hectic week probably, and my routine's all messed up. So anyway, this afternoon I decided to take a nap, only as soon as I'd dropped off, the phone rings. It's a friend of mine who I always ask to phone me before dropping round, just to make sure I'm awake, 'cause I never answer the door if I'm taking a nap. Thing is, he's taken to phoning just as he reaches my doorstep to tell me to come open the door. Rather defeating the object of phoning really. Well, I just said it wasn't a good time.. which it wasn't. So... back to sleep, and again, just as I'd dropped off again, and I do tend to struggle to get to sleep at the best of times, the phone rings again. It's my sister needing tech help on the computer. I'm always happy to help my sister out, and love hearing from her... not complaining for a moment... I just want to get a good unbroken period of sleep is all.
Labels: sleep
Steve 9:27 PM [+] (0) comments
Thursday, September 05, 2002
Spent the morning single handedly winning WWII in Medal Of Honour, and I'm not even american... much fun.Then went into town and came away with a job interview for tomorrow at 3pm. I can't say I'm excited about it, and certainly don't expect to get it, but I guess it keeps up appearances and looks as if I'm making an effort.
Gonna try and grab a few hours sleep now... it's hard to come by of late, screwed up sleep pattern and all that, so I have to be utterly exhausted before it's even worth trying.
Ugh! True to form, just as I'm about to nap, the asshole next door starts playing his bloody drums. It's like having a tank turning its engine over in the next room. He doesn't play them in the traditional sense, more a series of continuous drumrolls, probably thrash or some such crap. The funny thing is, on the rare occasions I've heard him play a straight 4/4 beat... he can't keep time to save his life. God help the band that has him as their drummer, 'cause if he can't keep time, they'll all be out of time too. Where's a 50 calibre machine gun when I need it?
Labels: games, interviews, sleep
Steve 7:25 PM [+] (0) comments
Tuesday, September 03, 2002
Very tired. Haven't been to bed yet, so must sleep now.I'll be about later.
Labels: sleep
Steve 5:13 PM [+] (0) comments
Tuesday, July 23, 2002
Uh.... I slept all day, so there's nothing to write here today. Didn't even have any interesting dreams this time. Oh well.Labels: sleep
Steve 11:24 PM [+] (0) comments
Monday, July 22, 2002
What monday?I slept till 5pm, and did none of the things I'd intended. Nothing unusual there then.
Strange dreams though.
I was walking through an area near where I live, in the dream, and came across a graveyard where my first love's school once stood. Out of curiosity, I wandered through, looking at the graves, and came across the grave of that first love. I was shocked, and fell down and cried. I didn't know she had died... no-one had told me, though strangely it didn't seem out of place... as if I'd known all along.
Later, I found myself in a hospital. My father was dying, and I was there to visit him. I went into the room, but couldn't see him till a nurse came in and opened the door to a broom cupboard. Slumped in the bottom was this naked, sick, withered old man, crying. I hugged him, and he hugged me back.
I know what the dreams mean, though that makes them no less disturbing. The first love being dead is a simple acknowlegement that my relationship with her is long in the past, and should be left there. An acceptance that yes it does hurt, and always will, but that history is history, and doesn't need to be dug up whenever something reminds you of it.
I guess the bit with my father is a part of me needing to reconcile my differences with him, to forgive him for being such an asshole when I was a kid, before it's too late. I don't know how I feel about that. I've been angry with him my whole life, blame him for a lot that's wrong with my life now, and know it'd be much easier to continue to shut him out. It's one I'll have to think on, for though part of me clearly wants to forgive him, the greater part of me isn't remotely the forgiving type... and to reopen a door I closed years ago is a very big deal.
Steve 7:20 PM [+] (0) comments
Thursday, July 04, 2002
Wow. What happened to thursday? I went to bed around 2am last night, really shattered, and woke around 7am. Pottered about on here for an hour, and then decided a couple more hours sleep before going into town would be nice. Couple more hours? Hah! Woke up at 8pm.I guess that's what being nocturnal does to you... body clock says "nope, it's light out there, so better stay asleep." Just as well I didn't have anything important to do.Labels: sleep
Steve 8:38 PM [+] (0) comments
Monday, July 01, 2002
Damnit!That'll teach me to sleep in. I'm all out of coffee, and the local shop's closed. Probably gonna have to wander over to the 24 hour supermarket later, 'cause a night on here without coffee is unthinkable. Nothing else of interest to report yet, but hey, I only just got up.
Labels: sleep
Steve 10:03 PM [+] (0) comments
My sleep pattern's all screwed up... as usual. I'm in that between sleeping in the day/night period, so getting to sleep at all is proving very difficult, though I'm tired all the time. Then when I do sleep, I either catch a couple of hours and wake up again just as shattered, or sleep for 12-14 hours, and wake up addled.
The question then arises, what to do while awake, but too braindead to concentrate on anything serious? (There are those who'd say I'm braindead all the time... thank you Jodene, before you even say it...hehe) Well, this morning I started playing Quake 3 again. Having completed it on the easiest setting (yeah, I'm a wuss), I decided to ramp the difficulty up a bit. On the 3rd setting, I couldn't even get past the training stage, so I set it to one above easiest. Woohoo! This is more like it. I can just about complete each level now, usually after about 10 attempts, and it requires a serious alteration of tactics, as the oponents are more cunning, and MUCH more aggressive. Way addictive, and utterly nuts. My poor cat kept looking at me, as if to say "What are you screaming at, you fool?!!" I'm usually a pretty calm and collected character, so that kinda shows how into it I'm getting. God, I'm sad ;-)
Steve 12:18 AM [+] (0) comments
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